Suicide race

She defended you saying "he does that for love and care", how can I believe a man holding a knife to my hear, blaming me for choosing me ? Fair is a lie, this life is a race and the best liar will be me. For a truer self, your mind will lie, lie, lie again, so I wonder how much love would it ask for you to give me the knife. Hoping I will do the action for you, I care and strive for a family that wants me, out. The true sinner will be the one without a love ! So fight me, I will sin and grin but you will be as thin and mean as the knife you point at me.