El desdichado

I watch myself, as we all laugh,  but Time slows as my eyes hit your face, and I despise myself the hardest for it. I try and stop it, but it seems Venus has chosen a victim and it is me. For, I hold myself to my knife, but i hold you to my passions, I tend to ruin the friendship. 

I gave you a cigarette last night, you didn't finish it and you gave it back, traces of your lips, I pictured on it, and I still hated myself for it. I shall let myself end this glass of wine, making words you will never read, dance as I wish to dance with you to a song you love. I let myself, as a friend, go without you but oh, so close to you.